:: Complains..? ::

Its really been superb long ever since i updated this blog. Hey! I did update my wedding/reno blog ya.. keke.. excuses. =P

I really miss blogging. Its 1.05am now. I took alittle time off after i have finish up tidying some plans for my wedding and type a few words here. Hey, i tried okay! :)

Suddenly, my life is so occupied.

I miss the simple life. Sleep - eat - work - nap/watch tv/surf net/chat on msn/blog/hanging around with friends/jog/swim/listen to radio/planning for outings,trips - Sleep.

The number of hours i use to sleep/nap is lesser nowadays. I'm so tempted to purchase a box of toothpicks whenever i walk pass a provision shop. I need it standby at home for my eyes... If i only i drink coffee..

No time to surf net at work nor at home. No time to listen to radios. No time to read newspaper or watch the evening news or channel news asia. I think i have been practically living in my own world for the past two months. When can i say... "HELLO WORLD!" ??

Office is already in chaos and it doesn't help a single bit when my buddy is on medical leave for almost 2mths. God to be thank that i'm still alive. Its not very movitating when i sees that she will be also on long leave in month of DEC. The high ups only sees the sales figures, and complain that biz was doing badly. Did they see a girl with hair all messed up trying to stuggle and handle her own work + her buddy's work? A recent meeting with the higher pple aren't helping in anyway. It just burn us out. I feel useless for not being able to point out the stuffs that im totally unhappy with. I hate myself for being so soft. I miss the aggressive me when im studying. Where have all my energy gone to? Maybe, my life is too occupied now. I don't want any wars at office. I need peace. - excuses? Not sure.

I miss my slow jogs at night. I miss swimming after work.

Perhaps, i miss home too. I miss my home cooked meals, dad nagging, mum laughing, brother disturbing me and my ahboy's small almost un-noticeable footsteps. Dating someone and living together is totally another experience. There are times where im home alone. I felt lonely. There are times where Jef and I argued a few times in a day simply bcos we don't meet eye to eye. Being understanding and accomodating to one another sometimes tires me off. I wish i can be a baby and demand everything to listen to me so that i don't need to wear out my tiny brain and heart. I guess, we both have lots to learn. Bottom line: "If we argue, it doesn't mean that we don't love each other. If we don't argue, it doesn't mean that we do.."

Of course, meeting the girls and my favorite pple are almost impossible now and i miss them dearly. And... I've got myself to help out at a petshop during the weekends aren't helping much either. Its probably tiring to work on weekends but i love my job. I love bathin for the doggies. I learn alot and i simply enjoy working with the ladies at the petshop. Conculsion: "I rather work with doggies, then talking to humans (refering to clients @ work).

A friend once said to me (probably a sadist or those kind of pple whose vision is only on the gf/bf when in love), "After you get married hor, you won't have time for friends. Your friends will all leave one by one.." My arguement, "If those friends are my true friends, if those friends are the people i love and care, i will not lose them, bcos they will understand me the best. I will definately squeeze out some time from my calender to catch up with them. Even if we don't meet up often, we still keep us in touch with sms etc. Don't ask me how sure, i know with all my heart that we will walk together for our lifetime."

My life is probably too happening now. I need a breathing space. I need a holiday before im punctured..

Its 1.58am..It feels good to pour 1/2 of my hearts out... I need my beauty slp now.